Thursday, December 19, 2013
I'm a pretty damn positive person.
It's a truth that I can't shake. It doesn't matter if things are slowly imploding around me, if the world seems like it's going to crash on top of me, I always try to look for that small speck of light that's hiding in all the darkness. I've had my fair share of dark times. I've seen what it looks like when you feel like nothing is going right and there can't POSSIBLY be anything ahead of you. Still, I've fought. I've won. I think that's why I'm always trying to spread that positivity when someone else needs it. Being along in the dark? It sucks.
The problem is that sometimes that well only runs so deep. With everything that's been going on lately (and no, it's not bad... just stressful) I don't have the energy to be as giving with people as I normally am. I'm gone 13 hours a day. I had to give up things up to make this new schedule work that I miss fiercely. There's just not enough time in the day. Things are moving, but they're moving slowly and still aren't certain. Being uncertain of things is my least favorite feeling in the world. Unfortunately? That's the way it is a lot. That's life.
Anyway the worst part of this all is that I can't help feeling like a bad friend. I forget to return text messages. I have less time to spend with others. I'll go days and days without remembering to say hi to the people that mean so much to me. I'm lucky that most of the people I adore understand. I'm lucky. I know that.
The point is, things are a bit in turmoil right now. Again, it's not anything bad. We've just come to a point in our lives where life threw up a speed bump, but he also opened a whole lot of doors to opportunities too. It's easy enough for me to say "Well, let's just see where it goes." It's harder to put that into practice and keep my mind from running circles around possibilities. I know one thing for sure. I'm a lucky girl to be surrounded with so many people who listen. To have a husband who understands, and to have a relationship that is strong.
See, I'm still a positive person. Just pardon me for a bit if I'm not as talkative on here, not as bouncy, and not as emotionally giving as normal. I'm still here! I'm still me. I'll bounce back. That's what strong women do. We take life as it comes, and when it misbehaves? We kick it in the face ;).
Thanks for listening to my rambling.
Sunday, December 1, 2013
I'm reeling over here. I can't believe that there is only one more month left until a new year begins! On the one hand I'm extremely excited about it. On the other? I'm pretty terrified. I turn the big THREE-OH this next year. As much as I'd like to proclaim that I don't care, that it's just a number, what it means is that I'm moving on into a whole new chapter in my life. No more 20's. On to the next adventure.
On the bright side, it seems that things are actually falling into place all of the sudden. Anyone who knows us knows that we've been wishing for something more. I can't complain, honestly. We have jobs, we have a nice apartment, and we have enough. Enough to eat, enough to go out, even enough to save sometimes. Still, as we edge into the next part of our lives, we want something more. I want to start a family, I want a home, and right now we just aren't able to do that. So, we're moving on. Sometimes being an adult means giving up one thing in favor of another. I've learned that. So 2014 is going to bring a lot of change! You'll see what I mean as the year starts. I have lots and lots of updates coming!
Anyway this last month of the year I'm going to relax, and let things take their course. If there's one thing I've learned throughout the last year, it's that whatever will be, will be. So bring it on 2014. I'm going to be ready.
Monday, November 25, 2013
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Sunday, October 27, 2013
Monday, July 15, 2013
Tuesday, July 9, 2013
I thought I'd post again today to share the rambling thoughts going through my head. As I dive further and further into wanting to spice up my work lunches, I'm finding more things to love!
If there's one thing momma always taught me, it's do your research.
So today I headed off to the library to see what I could find. Ah, the library. I happen to work across the street from the Los Angeles Central Library. It's like....a fantastical land of knowledge. The bookworm in me can't help but wander a bit, but I eventually did make it to the cookbooks.
I found this gem hanging among the cookie manuals and swordfish recipes. What caught my eye most of all was that everything on the cover is easily accessible. Then I opened the cover and....wow. Just wow.
Makiko Itoh did all the work for me. There are preparation timelines, a meal planner to fill out, and even gorgeous full cover photos of all the food that I can make. Am I the only one who drools over food photos?
Sunday, July 7, 2013
It's always a battle for me to try to remember to post in here. I'll stare at how long its been since the last time I sat down to write, and sigh. My book blog takes up a lot of my evenings. Honestly though? I wouldn't have it any other way. Still, I'm going to try to at least post in here once a week. It seems Sunday evenings are a good time. So here we go!
Let's see, what have you missed?
Well, I turned another year older! I'm not certain about the "another year wiser" part but I now get to write a new age on any forms I fill out :). My hubby was sweet enough to spirit me off to Vegas for the weekend, and I may or may not have had some drinks...
Well that's about it for now! If I don't post in here at least once a week you feel completely okay with yelling at me. Motivation takes work, and it helps if others are keeping you honest.
Saturday, June 8, 2013
Thursday, April 11, 2013
Sunday, March 31, 2013
Growing up Easter was a big holiday for my family. We threw a huge party, cooked food on the BBQ, and all of our family and friends would come out to spend the day. I remember being really excited for a day filled with fun and sun.
Then, I grew up, graduated from college, and moved in with the love of my life.
Since then it's just been Brandon and I. It's hard for us to go places on a Sunday because he works graveyard and I have to get up before 5am every week day.
So, we celebrate today the same day we do every other Sunday; by enjoying one another's company, making some food we love, and relaxing. It's definitely different. No huge parties, no buffet tables laden with food, but you know what? I like it. It's small, it's simple, it's comfortable.
Maybe our opinions on this holiday will change once we have a child. I mean, I want them to have just as much fun as I remember having. For now though, it's just us two and I like it just fine that way. To those out there lamenting the fact that we aren't at a shindig, don't worry about us. We're a perfectly happy couple :).
Happy Easter, Sunday, or whatever you choose to celebrate today. Remember, deep down it's all about love and life.
Sunday, March 24, 2013
Wednesday, March 20, 2013
As I sit here enjoying the salad wrap that my hubby made for me (he's the cook in the house and damn good at it too) I can't help but ponder my obsession with blogs. See, I've always been a journal writer. From the time I was old enough to write in fairly decent penmanship, I've kept a journal.
Thursday, March 14, 2013
I had to share what happened on the train today!
There was a little boy sitting and reading next to the window. I'd say he was probably around 7 or so. Then another little boy around the same age got on the train and sat behind him. This was their conversation....
Second Boy: "Mom!! Mom look! I want to go to McDonalds!"
*mom is on the phone*
Second Boy: "MOM!! MOM!! MOM!!"
Reading Boy: "Hey! Be quiet! I'm reading!"
*moms look at each other and laugh quietly*
Second Boy: "Whatcha reading?"
Reading Boy: "Wanna see?"
And then they sat together and read his book and it was so adorable! Ah, I love kids. The purest kind of people.
Sunday, March 10, 2013
MY BROTHER CALLED TODAY! I didn't actually talk to him, since I wouldn't take that luxury away from my mom ever. She definitely needed that call more than I did. Still, it was so awesome to hear a real update on how he's doing :). I've gone through the whole military brother thing with the hubs and his family, but this is the first time my own family member has been so far away. I can't deny I miss him, but the pride I feel overshadows that tenfold. I'm a proud sister!
I finally had the opportunity to procure a red marker (I had no idea writing a letter to send to his PT was so hard) so I think I'll sit down a write a letter tonight or tomorrow. He hasn't left my thoughts since he went, but I haven't gotten to write him a letter just yet either.
In the grand scheme of things today was just an overall wonderful day. Good food, time with family, and no stress. Thank goodness for weekends like this. I'm energized and ready for the week to come.
Saturday, March 9, 2013
I've had a lot of time to ponder the state of things and I'm remembering how lucky I am. We're at a good spot in our lives. Happy with what we have and looking forward to what's still to come. I can't deny it...I'm just downright content. It's a great feeling.
As the year moves on I know we'll be constantly reassessing things. Making decisions as to what we as a couple are ready for and, truthfully, I can't wait. I've got a great guy by my side who understands me. We see eye to eye and know how to communicate and compromise. I know that no matter what comes our way we are strong enough to face it together.
So here's to feeling content. To appreciating what you have and enjoying life. I'm a happy wife.
Monday, March 4, 2013
Wednesday, February 27, 2013
News Flash: I've finally finished editing all our photos! There are over 450 of them, so you have no idea how much of a big deal that is for me :). Now I can share even more with you!
Tuesday, February 26, 2013
So here's a small taste of what we've been up to lately. We've been super tourists and quite honestly all this walking is so tiring. Still, totally fun!
Sunday, February 24, 2013
After ordering the menois-a-tois (RIGHT?!?) and impatiently waiting I took my first bite. I can't even remember what my sandwich had on it, but I can tell you that it was so utterly delicious I had to eat all of it.
Oh...and lick my fingers.
Saturday, February 23, 2013
It was a gorgeous drive out here! Smooth sailing, great tunes, and my main squeeze to keep me company. So fun!
Ahead of me lie 7 beautiful days of relaxation and tourism. We've decided to make a plan each day rather than mapping everything out. Go with the flow I always say!
I promise many pictures and lots of ramblings in the days to come. Yay for good friends and good food!
Wednesday, February 20, 2013
As you may well know, Mr. B and I have been married for...oh look it's the 20th! So 4 months as of today! Oh my, how times flies when you're having an awesome life.
Anyway the biggest question we get asked as newlyweds, and especially as newlyweds who waited a gasp-ensuing 10 years to get married (oh the horror!!!), is what has changed since we tied the knot. Inquiring minds want to know what is different.
Okay well, yes, my last name. If we're being picky. Other than that though, everything is just the same. I consider this a good thing. I mean, if something changed then that means we've changed, yes? Or maybe it's just because we've been living together for 5 years and we've been through all those roadblocks, over them, and on our merry way. Either way, that's the truthful answer.
You have NO idea how much that bothers people. They ask things like...
"Well isn't it hard to share finances?"
"Don't you have trouble making decisions together?"
"Aren't you worried that nothing changed?"
Answers are nope, nope and a huge NOPE. We are in a sweet spot. It could be the length of our time together, it could be that we're utterly compatible, or maybe it's a combination of it all. I don't know, and I'm not going to complain. I'm a lucky lady and I know it!
So the next time you ask a newlywed couple how it is to be married, or if anything has changed, be prepared to this as an answer. Sometimes nothing IS the answer.
Sunday, February 17, 2013
Today was one of those days where we just went out to be out. Sadly the weather wasn't as nice as yesterday, but it was still pleasant enough to wander around the mall, snag some kicks on ShopKick (yes I blame you Monica!!!) and eat some delicious Souplantation for lunch.
Right now I'm in pre-vacation mode. My brain knows we leave on Friday, and I am just so calm and collected. Relaxed even. I'm sure on Thursday night I'll be freaking out over what to pack, but for now I'm going with the flow and enjoying life. It's kind of a nice feeling to have something to look forward to.
You'll probably hear it a lot on this blog, but I love the heck out of my hubby. He's shown me that there is a fine line between working hard, and working yourself to ruin. So thanks for that baby. I needed it.
Bring on vacation!